Moaning away the blues

I am having a particularly hard day. I am at work, but this has nothing to do with work. It is more to do with where I am today and what my life has become. I have no one to share this with, so I will share this with everyone. I am all torn up inside, I am scarred and have no motivation to go on. It seems it is getting harder and harder for me to be able to go back to the US. I am not sad I have to stay in my home country instead of a country I prefer living in. I am crushed that even though I have a masters degree with top scores from one of the good schools in this country, I cant find a job here. I have to maybe get another masters or maybe an MBA to be considered employable for a good enough job. My parents were counting on me, like all Indian parents do for graduating and start contributing to the household. I have put them down. I have not lived up to my expectations. I really just want to quit working and do nothing. My brother did the same and I constantly tell him how stupid that was. The thing is in this darn age, in this country, with the number of people that live here it is extremely hard for average people to get positions that don't involve doing glamorous laborer jobs for US Clients. You end up working for irrational, idiotic American morons who have no respect for how easy we make their jobs sitting here in India. All this for peanuts as compared to what they are paid. Plus everything is so darn expensive, everything is so unreachable to most folks. It is unreal how people here are so satisfied doing jobs they don't like for so little money or recognition for what seems like ages. No wonder everyone here has so little self worth. We are nothing and this is for nothing.The more I do this the more I realize how ridiculous life becomes when you complicate it with possessions and other responsibility. I would like to also reiterate my displeasure of having to live in Delhi. I hate this place, I hate it as much as I could hate any place. I really do hope I can skip this town very very soon.

Ciao!