I am in a constant turmoil this fine night about my world view, especially in regards to romantic relationships. It is breezy outside, quiet pleasant. As I go over my younger years and my unrelenting struggle to accept and be accepted in relationships, the thought chokes and suffocates me.
Even though I know I need to let go, I find it so hard to give up on something I invested so much of my time and effort into. It reorients in my world view forcing me again to want to act selfish and not really care about anyone and their feeling. At the end of the day all everyone wants is to be satisfied - mentally, physically and emotionally. If being in relationships gives you more grief than joy why spend any time investing in emotionally. It is the cerebral thing to just focus on one or two of these three needs at a time. Why does our culture look down upon frivolous encounters when there really isn't much merit to go after "real" things.
Another argument can be that it is so hard to find success in relationships is because great things are harder to accomplish. If we want a fully functional fulfilling relationships you have to give up a lot, you have to make do in a lot of places. But is the pursuit of something amazing worth it if it only stays a pursuit and does not lead to anything worthwhile? Isn't real love a thing of mills and boons and old love fables. I have never encountered a perfect relationship. So if inherit nature of even the best love stories is not perfect why are we seeking the best package to begin with? Why are we fooling ourselves?
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